The Key

The key to unlock me it seems
Maybe this deems
Me to insanity
My misunderstanding of humanity
I wish I could express
These feelings I need to address
Or more really repress
How do I destroy this
Deploy this
A bomb to my own heart
If only I could've killed this from the start
Now I can't help but fall apart
Grown too deep
Secret I can no longer keep
My smile reveals all
This strong tower is soon to fall
Shattered by this devastating squall

Finally

Finally I've been released from your clutch

Finally away from your touch

Finally free from this strife

Finally away from your destructive life

Finally the tables have turned 

Finally I seem to have learned 

Over Before We Began

A word from you can change my day
From resisting to let out the sobs of tears
To a slight smile dancing across my lips

No it's not perfect and theres still pain
But somehow you have managed to help me stay sane

I love the little things you do without notice
How can you not see
You know you truly know me

Every unspoken word
When my vision becomes blurred

When this all seems absurd

You're there holding my hand
Right there helping me stand

My most prominent fear
That if you find out my feelings dear

We would be over before we began

Still Beating

Broken and shattered
My heart surely is tattered
The stabs and jabs
Darts continually thrown
They have stripped me down to the bone
It should be defective
But it still beats
Well thats subjective
Maybe it is ineffective
But I'm still alive
After each and every jiving effort to break me
I'm proud of its lasting rhythm
It didn't give in when the world made it it's victim

Barricade

Everyone puts up a lasting facade 

They can conceal 

How they truly feel

They laugh and smile 

Like they haven't even walked a mile 

I too have a strong wall

No one will ever truly know how tall

It's a barricade for my heart

How easily I seem to still fall apart

These chains I can never break

screaming to an invisible audience

I don't know how much more of this I can take
Wishing I could show them I'm just a fake

While everyone else can unlock the door

I am stuck inside holding back even more
crying out for a single soul to hear
many would say I'm silent

If you truly knew you too would be in fear

Know me

You think you know who I am

Some say it be

But are you sure you've truly studied me

The ways I get so upset

 I remember how we all met

The pain I experience all locked away

How I never thought anyone would actually stay

The times I wished I could just take it all 

I'm quite clumsy as everyone knows 

But I've never left anyone see me fall

Broken words

My tongue continues to lock

My mind just seems to mock

My sanity leaves

My heart greaves 

Over these words not spoken

Are we just that broken

It's never seemed like too much to bear

But now my heart repetitively tear

My life is spinning faster 

I can't seem to master

Moving forward

Maybe I can't