I hear you sweet friend.

I hear you sweet friend
Your cries in the night
The ones you think go unheard
You laugh out of tune
with eyes darting
And a falling heart
I know that something's off
It pierces my soul
To see you running out of control
I don't know how to catch you
Fix you
I see the end of this path
The arrows flashing the fiery flames
But you, blind
Don't seem to care
But I know this must scare
Cause even if you can't see
You feel the wind
The jaggedness coming to an end
Tumbling out of control.
I've been where you are.
Please stop doing this
Move this
I love you
Don't give up
You are the child of God
And no man will ever be enough.
Though it's fun for a while
It won't last
Please. I'm begging you.
Look up.
For God will give you the peace to top this trial
So please don't think your alone
That you need another to fill this hole
Let God be your rock. Be still. And know also-
I love you.
I'll stand beside you every step of the way.
I hear you sweet friend.
Don't throw yourself away.

Walk Away

It's kills me to walk away
But it kills me more to actually stay
No matter how difficult each step I take might be
I know it's right for me
Even though my heart may ache
I am going to do it for my own sake
I guess It's your move now
Cause I just moved away

Rebuild

I accept where we stand

I'm not going to demand 

A quick response 

Even though it taunts 

I am content 

You are in my life

And that's all I can ask after all this strife

I want more

But let's rebuild 

This land needs to be tilled

Even if we never are more than friends 

At least we're made amends

You will always mean more to me that I can explain

You are my most extravagant love

But are also the cause of my deepest pain

Thoughts

Sometimes I'm bored 

Sometimes I'm not

Sometimes I'm just consumed with though

The thought of you

The thought of me

Whatever we could be

Well whatever it is

I'm up till late 

Please sedate

This wild beast

On you it feast 

I want to sleep

I'm done with counting sheep

Sleepless

Checking the feed 

Checking the phone

No ones up

Only me

As I close my eyes to fall asleep

All I see is you

I wish to be dreaming

But My thoughts are steaming

This is a hopeless mission

I Cover my head

Curl up in bed

Now Banging my head

Restless

So once again 

Checking the feed

Checking the phone

I guess I'm just all alone 

My heart sinks

But I suppose that's what everyone thinks

Now please brain let me sleep

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Home. 

That's what you are to me. 

Broken Fantasy

You were my dream

The one I couldn't wait to one day wake up to as reality 

We'd make the perfect team

Or so it may seem

I loved what others hated 

Maybe you're bitter

But I'm not a quitter 

And neither are you

I saw a spark

Or maybe it was just too dark

To see it was nothing but a glare
Just a stupid dare

What I hoped I saw in your eyes 

Has caused the brokenness in mine

I was okay with the wait 

But maybe this was destined to be our fate 

We went too far

You were my star

In the darkness that consumed 

My running away loomed 

I guess I'm doomed 

I thought I could stay put

I've been holding on to this fantasy

But its costing me my sanity 

Maybe I'll never get 

I'm just not meant to fit
I'm meant to run away

I was never made to stay
I guess it's time to run
This race hasn't even begun