Over Before We Began

A word from you can change my day
From resisting to let out the sobs of tears
To a slight smile dancing across my lips

No it's not perfect and theres still pain
But somehow you have managed to help me stay sane

I love the little things you do without notice
How can you not see
You know you truly know me

Every unspoken word
When my vision becomes blurred

When this all seems absurd

You're there holding my hand
Right there helping me stand

My most prominent fear
That if you find out my feelings dear

We would be over before we began

Still Beating

Broken and shattered
My heart surely is tattered
The stabs and jabs
Darts continually thrown
They have stripped me down to the bone
It should be defective
But it still beats
Well thats subjective
Maybe it is ineffective
But I'm still alive
After each and every jiving effort to break me
I'm proud of its lasting rhythm
It didn't give in when the world made it it's victim

Barricade

Everyone puts up a lasting facade 

They can conceal 

How they truly feel

They laugh and smile 

Like they haven't even walked a mile 

I too have a strong wall

No one will ever truly know how tall

It's a barricade for my heart

How easily I seem to still fall apart

These chains I can never break

screaming to an invisible audience

I don't know how much more of this I can take
Wishing I could show them I'm just a fake

While everyone else can unlock the door

I am stuck inside holding back even more
crying out for a single soul to hear
many would say I'm silent

If you truly knew you too would be in fear

Know me

You think you know who I am

Some say it be

But are you sure you've truly studied me

The ways I get so upset

 I remember how we all met

The pain I experience all locked away

How I never thought anyone would actually stay

The times I wished I could just take it all 

I'm quite clumsy as everyone knows 

But I've never left anyone see me fall

Broken words

My tongue continues to lock

My mind just seems to mock

My sanity leaves

My heart greaves 

Over these words not spoken

Are we just that broken

It's never seemed like too much to bear

But now my heart repetitively tear

My life is spinning faster 

I can't seem to master

Moving forward

Maybe I can't 

Insanity

Was your goal to send me over the edge

To the land of insanity
To break my being down to the negative
You have succeeded

Blindly breaking my heart

Subconsciously ripping my soul 

Twistedly was this your intent

Open your blinded eyes

And see the ripping of ties

So as it may be
Wake up

You're about to lose me

Locked Away

I can't seem to find the words to say.
I get all tongue tied it just won't go away.
The explosion of my mind in the solitude of silence. 
All my thoughts planned out.
Your reaction I imagined without a doubt.
Approaching you has a different effect.
Everything seems to redirect.
My mind and heart work separate from my mouth,
the words needed never seem to come out.
I put up a strong front, but have forgotten how to take it down. 
The me you see is only a reflection.
My wall points you in a different direction,
than the truth that is hidden away.
When you find out I wonder what you'll say.
Everything within me, shoved behind doors.
Locked away.
I have lost the key.
I guess they'll stay.