25.06.2018

"Move my feet." 

My prayer for as long as I know
I've asked God to show me where else to go
forgetting too quickly to ask 
for the task that is right under my nose
wanting so desperately to run away
but I think its finally time for me to stay
To plant my feet
and grow my roots deep
Though it may terrify 
This time i'm not going to say goodbye.

20.04.2015

A stranger glanced and knew all too much
Who are these people I say I trust

18.05.2018

The pain in my chest
My heart feels so repressed
I cloud my own thoughts with this
Racing
Chasing
Pounding Beating breaking
Screaming crying panicking
Words without meaning
Blurring concurring disagreeing
STOP
it’s just so back and forth
When all I desire
Is to fall into your arms and turn off this mind that won’t quiet
But you keep turning away
Afraid to fall to nothing
I hold it all in and fear that I will never truly be at peace
If you love me at all
Help me be free of this beast

08.07.2015

Holding hands down cobbled streets
Talking at 2am
Coffee meets
Dances and dates
Rides and rollerskates
One day
Changing our lives
With you staring into my eyes
promising never to leave
Through Anything you'd try
That your love for me will never die
You get down on one knee
And plea
For forever
And tell of what we could be
Stay by my side
Through calm or storm
Through joy or pain
Even if I go insane
Rocking chairs on wooden porches
Graying hair
Through fights we'd always fair
Until death takes one of us home
We'd stay together
But that's just a fantasy

18.02.2018

Our skin may not touch
And our lips may avoid the others name
And Our brains may force us to stay within our lane
But in the inner vessels of my heart
I know
It beats to your name

21.04.2016

So I may not be who I seem
Underneath my skin I am born again
Though my body it shrivels away
My mind consumed with my life
My heart torn from the pain of regret
Of loss
Of strife

You say what's the point
In giving your all 
if you only will fall in the end
I say get back up
Don't give in
That's the demons win
Scream if you must
But don't quit
Keep running your race
You have what it takes
To get back up again
It's okay to hurt
You're only human
I know life brings pain
I know life is brutal
But you
You have a strength from above that is watching over you saying
Don't give in 
I love you
I know you're in pain
But just try again
I'm here

So that's why I say to you
God is near even if you can't hear
I know
Cause the world is deafening
It strips you of your sense
Leaves you without a defense
Standing alone
Just fall On your knees
that's where you should be
Don't think your too proud to fall out of the crowd
They walk around dead
But you have the choice
To be alive again
there's a stirring in your heart
And I know it's there
He's prodding
Nudging
A gentle wind
Reminding you again
Of the truth of your pains
Giving you the choice to throw it all away
For a new chance

So try again.

I hear you sweet friend.

I hear you sweet friend
Your cries in the night
The ones you think go unheard
You laugh out of tune
with eyes darting
And a falling heart
I know that something's off
It pierces my soul
To see you running out of control
I don't know how to catch you
Fix you
I see the end of this path
The arrows flashing the fiery flames
But you, blind
Don't seem to care
But I know this must scare
Cause even if you can't see
You feel the wind
The jaggedness coming to an end
Tumbling out of control.
I've been where you are.
Please stop doing this
Move this
I love you
Don't give up
You are the child of God
And no man will ever be enough.
Though it's fun for a while
It won't last
Please. I'm begging you.
Look up.
For God will give you the peace to top this trial
So please don't think your alone
That you need another to fill this hole
Let God be your rock. Be still. And know also-
I love you.
I'll stand beside you every step of the way.
I hear you sweet friend.
Don't throw yourself away.